The Giddy Delusions of Dreams

Remember last post, Passionate Guilt of a Writer, where I started off talking about Luminescence in the Darkness? Well started with a quote, which I am actually quite fond of.  

Seth Meyers (Image found using Google)

"Sorrow for what I did to a world I created before I delved to image it's beauty, but to preserve the planet would mean the story never happen." -Nekodra

Is that too egotistical to be proud of/attached to my own quotes? I also rather love:

"Our Milky Way Galaxy is but an atom of dust in an endless mansion, that in all of existence, has never been dusted." -Nekodra

“I am an Immortal Soul, locked in mortal skin, fearing I'll never be free again.”-Nekodra

Anyways, in Passionate Guilt of a Writer, I talked about how I am an idiot for not watching SNL actively till now? Well, I was going to start from the very beginning (which I have watched the first 5), but I am being a fan girl for Bill Hader and Seth Meyer (Seth has the most wonderful smile *Swoon*) and (Bill is so hilarious when doing game show hosts/suits are uber sexy, well he is sexy. Also Stefon is just adorable. Yes, I completely ship Stefon and Seth Meyers from weekend up >.> *cough* ) Also it was Bill Hader's birthday the other day and I am sure he won't see this but, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

So anyways, I am watching more recent episodes. I do plan to go back to the later years at some point. I want to also go through Jimmy Fallon's years, because enjoy Late night with Jimmy Fallon and the episode he hosted was good times. When people talk about Justin Beiber, I laugh because I will forever only ever see Jimmy Fallon's Justin impression. You know, Jimmy is pretty fine looking himself. I wouldn't mind a hug from those three, Jimmy, Bill, and Seth. And being Comedians, I bet they are fun so hang out with. But anyways, all episodes are good times (that I have seen), not every skit, but on the whole- Awesomesauce. I started watching an episode with Jim Carry the other night, loved that guy since I was a kid and I just remembered I never finished watching it. I had to go to bed, early alarm for work. I am sad the current season is over, but breaks are needed, totally understandable. I bare no ill will, just want to watch more. I have no new shows to watch till fall, everything I watch has ended. Though there are a few new summer shows that look promising.

Spoiler for Shows Warning:

Corbin Bernsen (Image from)

Psych:
T.T I am so worried for Henry! That was such an evil cliff hanger for the summer. I keep consoling myself that its Psych, they are not going to kill off a main character, right?! Right!?? And just because he is at filming, doesn't mean he is alive, because there are almost always flashbacks. And did you see the shirt Corbin Bernsen wore? Mean, taunting and mean. Lol. I know its to get hype and all that, and I know they end seasons like this to make sure you want to watch next season- BUT no, no you don't, those who love the show don't need a cliff hanger to want to watch next season. We already will want to, sure it makes us anticipate it, but still. I love the show don't get me wrong, just worried for Henry. I have my top favorite crush characters Shawn and Lassie, and then I have my top favorite Boss character which is Henry. I believe I mentioned this before in Shadows of Unwavering Blue, I think he is a wonderful father. Him and Lucien LaCroix from Forever Knight are the best fathers.

Doctor Who:
It wasn't long ago that over twitter Karen announced that our wonderful Amy and Rory Pond filmed their last episode. I am sure when it airs I will ball my eyes out. I am also super curious about the new companion, I saw her in the Titanic mini series that aired this last April, and she seems like a lot of fun and a perfect fit for a Doctor Companion. I am torn between wanting to see this new companion, but not, because seeing the new companion means we have lost Amy and Rory. Makes me tear up thinking about it.

Red Dwarf X:
I remember reading somewhere that while it would be ready to air this summer, of course it won't actually air till fall. *table flip* But I am eager to see it, from all the spoiler free reviews on those who got to see the filming. I hear its going to be great and still very classic Red Dwarf style. Yay! Arnold J. Rimmer, can't wait to see him again. I may have to go re-watch it on Netflix again this summer before it airs.

Vampire Diaries:
I finally watched the season finale the other day. I nearly had a heart attack when for a moment, no more then once they made it seem liked Damon was going to die. I also nearly cried because he was going to die alone because Elena chose the other brother. But you know what, she can have him, that means Damon is free for the taking. ^_~

Bill Hader as Stefon and Seth Meyers on SNL

End of Spoilers.

Side note on SNL:
You know you've watched too much SNL when you began writing various monologue ideas for various possible scenarios of how/why your getting the amazing chance to host SNL.

(Quick edit: Did I mention I also wrote a skit idea that made fun of my own stories? >.> )

My Book Projects:

Bill Hader as Stefon on SNL

I also started working on a movie script idea for a Vampire Romantic Comedy with my dream cast staring, Bill Hader, Seth Meyers, and David Tenannt (As Vampires of course). Then also Timothy Omundson (not as a vampire only because there needs to be some humans). Still only the very bare bones of plot ideas, so there aren't many characters, yet. There is also the lead lady, who I will foolish dream about playing but I know it won't happen, hence the more minor character that will be involved enough to get a scene or two with each dream cast male actor >.> *cough* But as gun-ho as I feel about it; because it feels like being on the set with those guys would be so fun and I would finally have gotten a chance to be on a movie set, but I must be realistic in my dreaming.

WOVaN is priority one, because I want to publish it first. I also want to get Modern Magic book 1 flushed out enough to seek a professional editor. So the Vampire Romantic Comedy will be very side project, but I need to research writing scripts. So if anyone has any good tips about writing scripts, toss them my way if you have a moment. It seems like it would be easier to write scripts, because its not full detailed writing like a book, but that will probably actually be harder for me and I still need to find out how they are formatted.

Back to WOVaN:
 Is coming along wonderfully! I almost have Vol. 1 ready to seek a professional editor. All but two stories are complete, and those that are complete are also as flush out as I can probably get them. Then the two stories that are left, still need an ending. >.< but what is written is pretty/mostly flushed out. So once I can think of an ending, I think its time to hunt for a professional editor. The cover has been commissioned, but I haven't gotten a rough sketch yet to approve, but I am patiently and eagerly waiting. Its being done by my awesomely talented friend, Miha, her DeviantArt. I did however sketched what will be, I guess the best description is icon for the series. A stylized version of the titled. I think its boss if I do say so myself. Once I get my new laptop and can flush it out more on the computer, I will show it off. I also have a few stories started and roughly written for WOVaN Vol. 2.

(Little edit: A few hours after this post was initial made, I finished up those two stories. Yay! So if anyone has advise on finding an editor, I am all ears. I have just never done this before and I will admit, I am really nervous. But, I must grow skin like stone and see how this turns out- once I find an editor of course.)

I know I haven't posted a short story in a few posts. Bad blogger, bad! I know its a pathetic excuse, but I have been so focused on my current projects that its hard to pull my mind away and write something completely random, but for you, My Dear Readers, I will try. This is going to be something completely off the top of my head, free writing, lets see if I will let myself post if after seeing what happens:

For Evergreen
by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

She stared out the water beaten window out at the evergreen trees, the amply source nickname of the state. Evergreen they are, and they have the house surrounded and isolated. The rhythm of the relentless rain was reassuring, relaxing, and for a moment she closed her eyes and let the heavy pounding of the sound carry her away down a calming river blanket of warmth. Nothing else existed but that sound and meditated silence of the world. A clap of thunder and everything swirled downwards, an interrupting sound, breaking her trance. Not that she had anything wrong against a good thunderstorm, it was just unexpected. She looked out at the trees again, baby birds just learning to fly fluttered from branch to branch with frenzied excitement, or trying to find a branch to shelter from the rain.

"Have you come to a decision yet?" He came from the front room, his golden eyes blazed in hunger. The door banged loudly against the wall, surely leaving yet another mark on the scarred wall. He growled like the wolf he was, cornering his prey.

"I already give you my answer." She stubbornly continued watching the green dance in the wind, taking it the hundred of subtle shades from bright lime to deep forest and everything in-between.

"And I am giving you a chance to be the smart girl I am beginning to think doesn't exist." He stomped almost comically like a drama queen, but he was a guy who is nothing but serious and cold.

"I guess you were mistaken." She knew those words would begin today's list of regrets, but she was reaching the point of no return. The break in her sanity people jokingly believed she reached years ago.

His hand gripped his chin, forcing her to look at him. Claws digging wounds into her cheek, which tried to rapidly heal themselves but the freshly populated skin cells found themselves blocked by the hard cold talons. The skin protested and cried in panic and that hurt worse then the initial tear and he knew it.

"Haven't you realized its hopeless? He never cared about you, if he did, he would have taken you with him."

"He assumed you'd follow him, rather then be petty by going for me. But, I guess he never calculated your stupidity."

"Whats that suppose to mean?!" He tossed her face away with a disgusted, causing her to hit the window with a sickening crack, spider rivets snaked out from the center of impact along the once smooth surface of the glass, but she hid the relief of her wounds now able to heal.

"If you had taken a moment to actually think, you would have followed him and do you want to know why?" She smirked in a taunting sing-song voice, pausing for his answer.

Uncrossing his arms, he pulled back his hand to slap her across the face. The sound echoed in the small cement room, "Stop with you condescending tone and tell me!"

"Then you could have caught up with him and dueled him on a more even playing field-"

She didn't flinched as her face suddenly splattered in his dark cold blood, a silver stake protruding from his chest, only inches from her face.

"Sweetheart, be careful, don't let any of that get in your mouth." Peering out from behind the shocked dying form before her.

"-You see, he never actually left town, in fact he was counting on you being petty. Ironically to stab you in the back." Carefully wiping blood away from her mouth.

He choked, mouth flapping open and close, unable to form any words, but he had clearly understood hers by the angered shock, the murder in his eyes, they then rolled up, as he crumpled to the floor with a last spasm before stiffening in death.
(The end)

Actually wow, interesting. I actually kind of like it. It actually- I caught myself off guard when it crossed my mind to have the blood suddenly splatter across her face. I hope that made up for the lack of short stories I posted.

Aright, I think that is it for the blog today. I am off to work of WOVaN and Luminescence in the Darkness. Please while feeling free to share this with friends, I did write this story, quite literally in 30 minutes, so remember it was written by me. Thank you. Enjoy!

If you want to read more short stories:
Short Stories Guide
WOTDS Guide

~Nekodra K.D. LaCroix
Nekodra-Blog@Hotmail.com
@Nekodra

Late Birthday Surprise

Still going to have sporadic posts, no laptop yet. I got almost half of what I needed to get a cheap-ish netbook- But I had a job interview! Super excited. It was the day before my birthday. It's a weeding process so there will be at least one more interview and it's unknown when that will be, because they don't have openings yet. They will have openings in the next few weeks and that's when the next interview will be- so any day now. The way my interviewer talked about it, sounded like I am a shoo in for another interview. Cross your fingers for me, it would be the best birthday present. And if I get the job, then screw getting a cheap netbook, I could get a new tablet laptop. I am so happy, just have to be patient. >.< Patience.


So in my excitement, I will wade through my parents crappy old old computer to give an update and write a WOTDS. Also fyi, it took me a few days to make this post merely because this ghastly old computer was driving me nuts and I could only handle it in small, very small doses. x.x I need a laptop, for the love of gods, let me get this job, for my sanity.

Zapp from Sakura-con. Photo from his Facebook page.

So Sakura-Con was fun as always. I love spending the time with my friends. So far I haven't been able to find any pictures of me and my fellow Pokemon Breeders. So if you were at Sakura-con 2012 Seattle, WA and you took any pictures involving a blue Pokemon Breeder with a cute small Lucario Plushie, that could be me and I would love to see the picture. There were three of us, a Red Breeder, Green Breeder and me, the Blue Breeder. Other then the one I showed in Split Musings I don't have any pictures of my cosplay. We did a 'photo shoot' with our friends who were Kagome, Sesshomaru and Naraku, but we ended up not taking pictures of the Breeders. So if you took any, please share. Next year, I will be joining the other three and I will be Rin. I likely will still bring the Breeder Cosplay and spend one day as a Breeder. But I am excited to branch out and try another Cosplay and as a group it should be fun.


Anyways, share pictures please and I can't wait for next year. Love Sakura-con. Zapp was there once again, love him. I hate the character Zapp from Futurama, but I love that cosplay of him. Weird, I know. The Zapp Loveline and Zapp Starship of Love was once again, AMAZING. They have a facebook- Zapp Branigan and His Spaceship of Love. Also of course, Cosplay Chess was so fun to watch. I kinda want to join next year, but I don't know if I have the guts. x.x


Spoilers for Hunger Games, Psych, and Doctor Who. Though if you keep up with the twitters of Moffat, Doctor Who news and other such Twitter accounts its not so much spoilers. But for those who want to know nothing, I should be courteous.


First Psych. The season finale was just last Wednesday. I can't believe they ended it like that! Honestly, I will be pretty upset if Henry doesn't pull through. Though I wonder if that's how they will lead into the musical episode, Henry loopy on pain killers. Lol. That would be funny. Until fall I will be worried about Henry. Can't wait. I believe they have started or are about to start filming. Aside from the ending, the episode was -as always-awesome as Psych has a habit of being, I just don't like the ending. See my crush favorites are Lassie and Shawn, then my favorite non-crush is Henry. He is bad-ass, remember the Deadman Curve Ball episode, tackle from no where for the win. Jules is also awesome, and I would at least steal a kiss from her. lol.


The Hunger Games: I actually only just read all three books for the first time just under a week before the movie hit theatres. Those three books had me by the balls, no joke- By. My(non-existing). Balls. I finished all three in about 2 and half days. I had trouble putting them down. Wonderful. I am late to the game I am sure, but if your of the few who haven't read them, I really suggest it. You won't be able to put them down.
I think they did a pretty good job on the movies. Things got glossed over, left out, it happens. I did like how hey unitized the game announcers. I feel there are just a few things I felt needed to be put in the movies that weren't there, because they play parts in the next books and I assume they plan to do the other two books into movies as well. All in all, I enjoyed the movie. I felt they captured the crazy style of the capital amazingly. It's was hilarious and how I imaged it. I think they picked actors who fit the roles well and I look forward to seeing the next two movies.


Doctor Who: So, I watched the Titanic mini series, which has Jenna-Louise Coleman. For those who don't know, she is the next companion after we cry our eyes out when Amy and Rory sadly leave us. Good news to that very very sad news, is that I personally think she will make a wonderful companion. When I first saw her I was unsure, mostly because I love Amy and I will miss her, but when I saw her in Titanic- I adored her. Simply put, she seems like she will be lots of fun. So if your unsure about her as the new companion, watch the Titanic mini series, it comes to DVD April 27th, I am pretty sure. Watch it. I think you will love her too.
Also am I the only one who picked up a hint about the Statue of Liberty being a Weeping Angel next season, or am I crazy? If its true, this sounds like a sad but Epic season.


Okay, I think I have talked enough. Next I will work on the WOTDS and then finally post this post.

April 16^th 2012

WOTDS

Nox (Latin)- Night

Vacuus (Latin)- Free from

Idir (Irish)- Between

Kaafii (Hindi)- Enough

“ENOUGH!”

The room fell dead silent, someone slipped slightly and you knew in these silence they were blushing at the fact they broke it for a second. Someone shuffled nervously,t heir rubber shoes sliding to and fro without being pickup from the hardwood floor. A heavily annoyed sigh came from her left and she restrained from rolling her eyes and instead mimicked his sigh and spoke in a more lady light tone, but her bitterness was stillevident.

“I believe I am my own person, and there for have every right to make my own decisions. I have made mine and I don't think it is really right to chime in for or against it-”

But chime in they did, becoming an almost in-audible jumble of words and phrases. In the between the jumble words stuck out, a sentence make sense, before others swallowed the rest.

“Not right-”

“I have never-”

“What a ghastly choice-”

“What are you thinking?-”

“Why-”

“What is wrong-”

“How dare-”

“Spell-”

This time he came to her rescue with a caring hand on her shoulder, with a hidden wink, his voice boomed above everyone else, and silence stuck. Sure even the owls paused inthe trees nearby.

“Let her finish!” His hand left her shoulder and she quickly stole it to her side, not wanting to loose the support.

“Thank you, Gavon.” She looked out at everyone again, knots tying and untying in her gut, not at her choice, but at her peers and her family. They just can't understand, and I can't understand that.

 
“Love knows no shape or conformity. Love is simply what it is and I love Gavon-”

“But he is-”

The glint of red, reflecting as flecks of burning embers in his blue eyes direction at the one who spoke and it was like a zipper had zipped and locked into place by invisible hands to close his mouth and keephim from finishing his sentence.

“I know, and I know you all know-”

Someone dared to expertly throw a wooden knife at the chest of Gavon, who not only caught it with eased but barely seemed to notice it had been thrown, simply released it to clatter to the floor. The room was silent again. Only one person can throw knifes like that, her brother. All thinking they would loose their lives as the cost of his reckless attempt.

“Please.” Her hand tightened its hold, anchoring her in place, otherwise she feared all would well up and swallow them whole, alone, without love; an unforgiving ocean of disapproval, of fear, of rejection, or worst of all- a mob to kill them.

Gavon turned to her then, and she knew that look. The look of I told you so. The look of why did you bother? The look that they would never understand as you do. She looked back to the unruly crowd, of those who once loved her, but now can no longer accept her for who she is and what she loves. She whispered quieter then any mortal ears could hear, words only for the one beside her. Once I finish talking, just take me away. I just want to be free from this, free with you.

 
“I thought I would give you all the curtsy of informing you that I was leaving, that I was in love. That I want to spend my days with the one I love. I simply did not want you to waste your days searching for me, thinking I was lost, or worrying if I had died and my body lost. My leaving is not up for discussion. Good bye.”

Dust swirling up was the only indication that someone had once been in that spot. No one spoke, for a moment they didn't even breath. Then one by one, sure they had not been killed by the beast, began to draw in air and release it. Someone fell to their knees, crying hysterically for the lost of a child, at what she believed to be the death of a child. Soothing masculine hands try to console the grief. A knife whistled through the air and lodged into the wall where the monster once stood. Others filed out of the house to leave the family to grieve in peace over a child lost to the night.

(Done)

~Nekodra
Nekodra-Blog@Hotmail.com
@Nekodra
Please remember these stories are written by me. Enjoy.

Springs Rejuvenating Treat

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x.x Yeah, there is a reason I haven't been using my parents super old and super slow computer. It makes me want to bang my head against the desk. Now that the browser and word processor are open, its not so bad, but getting to that point is like wading through a river of molasses. But I really wanted to type something, proper type. And I had an urge to do a WOTDS. I had a burst of ideas for Modern Day Magic a few days ago, but I can feel the staleness, I needed to brake to something new for a moment and then I feel I might be able to work better. Though part of the problem is I no longer like to write stories by hand, mostly because I can barely read my own hand writing and editing is so much better on a computer. And doing this WOTDS on a computer, oh I feel rejuvenated. I really do. I think I might go crazy if I don't get a new laptop soon.

Also: This isn't a return yet, just a treat because its been so long. My laptop is still dead and I am crossing my fingers to get enough money for my birthday to get a relatively cheap netbook that I can word processor on and also play Minecraft. And type my stories, ah proper typing is so nice. So this is a treat not just for my readers, but me too. Typing feels good. I am still technically on a hiatus, but like my tweet from earlier today, hopefully the hiatus will be ending soon. (my twitter account: @Nekodra) My birthday is April 10th, but like it often is, my family is combing Easter and my Birthday, so I will be getting my gifts on the 8th and I have a large family. So if everyone gives me money for a gift, I should hopefully have enough for a netbook and I don't know what I will do if I don't get enough. >.< But ^_^ Think positive, I am sure it will all work out.

I have managed to work quite a lot on Modern Day magic. I slightly dread the moment when I will start to take those notes from pen and paper to the computer. I have such horrible handwriting and I have a rough estimate, that at last count, I have written about 5,500 words in that notebook. I took a sample of 11 pages and found the average word count and that's how I am getting that number- the average word count times the page number. Could be more or could be less. Also I think, if I remember correctly, that puts me at about a total of 38,000 words for the overall count for Modern Day Magic. Wow. 

So anyways, I won't bore you too much longer and then I will post the WOTDS and that will be my Spring Gift to my readers and something new and better then that last post. 

I have been playing a lot of Pokemon the last week or more and looking forward to Black and White 2. Though admittedly I am a little disappointed its not a 3ds game, meaning they aren't utilizing the street pass the 3ds offers. I am hoping that Black and White 2 are throw outs to keep us fans happy while they are working on a new generation that will be for it. I can think of so many possibilities they could do with Pokemon and the street pass tool on the 3ds. I can't image them not making a Pokemon game specific for the 3ds. A lot of my Pokemon playing has been to make a bunch of babies to give away at Sakura-con, because like I mentioned before, my current only cosplay is a Pokemon Breeder. So if your attending Sakura-con 2012 at the Seattle Convention Center April 6-8th, keep an eye out for a light blue apron dressed Pokemon Breeder with a silver bucket of Pokeballs. I have baby Pokemon to give away.

Also, anyone else enjoying the new episodes of Psych, I am. I think my favorite out of the recent, well how can I choose between Shawn dressed as Indiana Jones? But I also loved the Shinning Episode. Though I think if I had to choose, Indiana Jones and then the Shining, but its a close one. Really is. That character Amy from the Shinning episode, oh she was a riot! Loved it, such great comments. I heard the cast had a hard time keeping a straight face with her lines, and I think its clear why. Also the Indiana Jones episode, the return of Pierre Despereaux, love that. He is such a fun character! Shawn and the Real Girl, not bad. Like all Psych episodes it was funny, though I do still need to watch it the second time. I was distracted the first time and I know I missed things that I am sure will make me enjoy the episode more. I am also really looking forward to tomorrows episode. Marlowe returns. I have been waiting so long to see her and Lassie together again. I have seen a few clips and it looks promising. Psyched for it!


I have also just gotten into The Vampire Diaries. I don't know how that show slipped three seasons under my radar, but it did. I have completely caught myself up the last 3 weeks, and have found myself falling hard for Damon. Yum. So I look forward to Thursday nights, Wednesday and Thursday nights are currently the best days of the week. Once Doctor Who returns, there will be a third night, but they are currently filming the next season so it will be sometime before then. Anyone else sad we are loosing Amy and Rory? I know it has to happen the companions can't stay forever, but its still sad. I will probably cry as much as I did for Rose and Donna. Though admittedly I am really curious bout who his new companion is, I think I read that it will be officially announced tomorrow. So curious.


Okay, enough yammering. Like I said Hiatus still in effect, this is just a gift to re-awaken my muse and a gift to those who maybe missing reading my blog and my short stories. I know it had been a while before the hiatus since I have posted a Short Story. So here it is:

Note: I think I fixed all the weird spacing errors, that don't know what caused them in the story, but it should be readable now.

WOTDS

March 20^th 2012

Word Count: 1,507

Vernal- Appearing or Occurringin spring

Scivolare (Italian)- To Slip

Benefictium (Latin)- Kindness,Benefit

Silere (Latin)- to be silent, tobe still

Timor (Latin)- Fear

Alainn (Irish)- Beautiful

Alag (Hindi)- Different

Benefictium of Death

She smiled with a sad sigh at the vernal beauty of the landscape as it shifted before her eyes. The stark difference of the death winter held, then to melt into the warmth and rain of spring. While it wasn't her favorite time of year. While the comfort chill of winter gone. While the frozen landscape gave away to blooming buds. It was still beautiful, it was still the natural glory of nature. The crisp green of life. The crisp colors of living. 

Picking up her almost forgotten bag from the still growing grass as it stretched and yawn from its slumber, shaking the last chill weighing it down to stand tall and to once more continue its ever struggle to reach and touch the burning rays of the sun. Now to head back into town with the gathered herbs collected to begin her first dinner alone.

In the shadow of the trees loomed a darkened figure, cloaking itself in the shade of the newly leaf endowed tree, who shivered with excitement at the mornings gift to stretch it's branches out, no long a skinny knot of bones but bloating to touch its neighbors in glee. 

Pulling the hood tight around his hidden face to dashed from the safety of darkness and rushed for the young women of pale skin and soft eyes. New to adulthood and independence, still full of childish naivety to the world. Forgetting one simple rule of safety when near the woods, never wander alone.

Suddenly she found herself shoved under the cooling shade of a tree that had been several feet from where she had once stood. Strong iron gripping arms held hers down and against the scraping bark of the tree. She could feel her arms scratch away skin by the stinging that crept along back of her arms that kissed the wood.

Gathering a moment of overwhelming curiosity that had nothing to do with being brave, she opened her eyes to a frightful scene. Red blazed eyes pierced hers and suddenly she lost all will to struggle, fear crawled up her spin, but she had no reason to leave his strong arms and so she stilled herself and didn't dare speak a word. 

A breeze rushed up and the hood fell away to reveal his face, now no longer a pair of flamed eyes. His skin looked like it was once tanned but now forgetting how to hold pigment proper it was white as a ghost, as silver as the moon and such a wonder to the dark as a forgotten cave hair that frame his face, most having fallen from the tie that held the rest back. A Strong face of a man who one knew hard times, and perhaps a battle ortwo.

“That’s better, its going to be okay.” His voice hypnotically soothed with its devil charm. “Tell me your name, pretty thing.” He released one arm to stroke her soft freckled cheek with a smile that hid bad intentions. 

“Nataline.”

“Nataline, what a unique name.” He stepped closer, pressing himself against her body and took a deep breath, inhaling the smell of grass and spices, cinnamon. “Such alovely thing. How old are you?”

“19” Her blue eyes dazed, and tone even and without fear, though deep down she wondered if she should be, but his voice soothed her once more.

He released her other arm, both hands now cupping her cheeks. “19, so young, so innocent. Oh, but the most apparent of innocent are always the ones who end up being the most fun. Maybe I will give you a gift. Would you like that, a gift?”His smile became a knowing smirk.

“Gifts are always a lovely surprise.” Her lips broke into a childlike grin at the sight of a Christmas tree on Christmas morning.

“Yes, yes they are.” He began to brush his cold fingers through her long darken hair, moving it off tothe side exposing her neck, watching the vein beat with her even calmed heart that held hands to the occasional flutter of speed washing in like a tide, before he spoke again, locking eyes once more. “Do I frighten you, lovely?”

“Your kind, you thinking of giving me a gift, why should that frighten me?”

“My eyes.“ As they blazed brighter. 

“My teeth.” As the canines sharpened and grew.

Her heart fluttered then took off like a shot, chest tightened for a moment and then curiosity took over again, masking itself in bravery.

“Are you a demon that hides in the skin of a man?” She asked with wonderment. 

“I am a demon, who tends to be more human then a man.” He answered simply with the memories from past scenes swimming and rising a moment of anger that he stilled and returned his focus on Nataline.

“Are you going to kill me?” She asked.

“No.”

“Then I have nothing to fear.”

“I think you do deserve a gift, Lovely. To make up for past days and undeserving attention.” He commented, in possession of knowledge that wasn't thought to be know.

“How?” Wonderment crossed her face once more, as her mind refused to bring thoughts into consciousness.

“I often go unnoticed in shadows and I see things, or over hear conversations that are miles away. My poor lovely.” He stroked her cheek again.

“Whats your gift?” She shivered unsure, curiosity still taking control. Her mind once again thrusting unwanted memories deep down into a never ending chasm, though they will still snake their way to the top again. 

“The gift of life and the world.” Tilting her head gently to the side, almost unable to control the need that weaved its way around him and escaping as a low growl from the pit of his stomach, before he rushed to sank his teeth into her throat. Blood rushed over his lips and down his throat, he tried to tame himself, but he gulped it down with greed, pinning her to the tree with his body as his arms held her tightly against him, one snaked around her back and other lost in her hair. 

Unexpected passion rose and wrapped around them both as she gasp in surprise and expecting pain, but it was more a pinch and it was gone as quickly as it began and feelings unknown and made her warmth, coiled in the pit of her stomach and fogged her mind. What else she felt was an odd sensation of emptying, it was the most curious feeling like once soul is melting into another. Feeling herself being pulled into his thirsty mouth and yet not moving an inch. Images brushed against her mind and then faded again, like a forgotten dream. 

Images of times long gone and deathwitness some by his own hand and many not. Of countries and worlds she had never dreamed of. 

They everything began to fade, she felt herself slip down the tree, lengthen those scraps along her arms from earlier, before the stranger took all her weight upon himself and they both slid to sit upon the shadowed ground, as he pulled his lips from her neck. Licking a trail of blood that began a path down his chin.

“Shh, not to worry.” He calmed as she began to struggle for breath. “Just a moment and it will get better.” He paused, to give his body time to absorb and change her blood before he bit into his wrist and brought the dripping wound to her mouth.

“Drink, Lovely, drink.” He cradled her to his chest, that rose and felt with heavy breaths of passion, relishing the blood that now coursed through his body and recalling the satisfaction as he recalled the nights ago when his slowly and painfully drained the life of the one who had hurt her. 

One hand bracing her head and the other still held to her mouth, as he focused his attention once more to her, a few nervous beats went by before enough blood trickled down her throat to awaken and energize enough and then she begin gulping it down on her own accord. 

“That’s it, take as much as you need.” 

The wound began to heal itself and when it did, he was a shocked when she gasped in pain at her teeth lengthening for the first time and then she bit down to have more.

He chuckled under his breath, “My-my.”

After a beat he pulled his wrist away.“Don't drain me dry, Lovely.” 

Another beat and her body stiffened a moment and then she screamed and in a flash she stopped, slipping unconscious as her body began to change and her heart stilled. 

“Everything will be better now, the world awaits for your eyes to view.” Picking her up and walking back to the darken woods that no one dares enter alone.

(The End)
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Alright, hope you enjoyed it. Back to Pokemon and watching Doctor Who. Just went through all of 10th Doctor again, such a bittersweet story and his last line before he regenerates, just kills. I will admit, I ball my eyes out every time I re-watch 10th Doctor, so many sad moments, bittersweet moments. Now onto crazy and goofy 11th Doctor. Who has grown on me, but 10th will always be my first. 

As always, please remember the story, Benefictium of Death was written by me. Thank you. 

~Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

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Thoughts on Psych's Tao of Gus

My Review for “The Tao of Gus”

I just have to start today’s post by talking about last night’s episode of Psych (created by Steve Franks) don’t worry there will be a short story, as always. So about ‘The Tao of Gus’. LMAO I think last nights episode has to be the episode I have laughed the hardest and most at, just none stop laughing gold. In fact I am already watching it again, and I will watch it another time with my boyfriend. So I will see it at least 3 times, but likely more. Great, great episode! So a shout out to Tim Meltreger, who wrote this episode! It was awesome!

The facial expressions on Lassie (played by Timothy Omundson) in the beginning was hilarious, and his impression of his thoughts on how she has to smoking something was actually unexpected, to see Lassie do that and quite funny and not only the looks, but also the responses from everyone else was great. Then later one, Carlton’s relentless, and I mean relentless, snide and frankly harsh words about these hippies, was funny. “Why are we still talking to these stinky flag burners?” or “If it wasn't for the fetid stench of unwashed hippie pits we might not have found this place at all” and more, so much more. Oh Lassie, I can see your view on hippies, harsh Lassie, harsh, but I still love you!

On Gus (Played by Dule’ Hill), we have to talk about Gus, as it was a Gus centered episode after all. So Gus, our lovely Pharmaceutical Rep and Shawn’s life long best buddy, I think is slowly going over the deep end. Just a little >.> I mean, Gus dear, you seriously went a little crazy in this episode. So The Tao of Gus is about how he has fallen head over heels for another crazy girl who may or may not have witnessed a killing. Now we all remember the killer’s adopted daughter in Last Night Gus? Then the girl who thought she was a dude named Frank, in Shawn Interrupted. And who can forget Mira from a few seasons ago? But, I worry Gus starting to loose it, to be honest, but I think he just wants someone. I think he is probably a little jealous if not also baffled that Shawn of all people is in a serious relationship, and I think Gus is getting desperate for love himself with all this. But, well at least he is hilarious while going crazy, right? The lines Gus said, priceless. ‘Yeah, crime in progress cause she is stealing my heart, but I am not pressing charges.’ The delivery was outstanding on that line. You have to actually watch this episode, you can’t just take my word for it, and hear me type the quotes, you have experience the whole thing, tone in voice, facial expression, and everyone else’s faces when he does that. And there are more, so many more great quotes from this episode. Gus: Your silhouette should be on a mud flap. Shawn: That is the weirdest flirting I have ever heard. And probably one, of not my favorite quote from this episode, Juliet (Played by Maggie Lawson) with her line ‘Wow, I would like to apologize for my creepy colleague’.

Shawn of course has his priceless lines too, and honestly I think he did a good job not freaking out too bad over the whole situation. I don’t know if I could have stayed so calm. You could tell he was uncomfortable there, and a little freaked by how much ‘kool-aid’ Gus drank, but he still had his classic Shawnism. “Maybe a snowman did it.” Or “Shawn: Gus drive! Gus: There's people around. Shawn: Drive through them. Gus: They're smiling. Shawn: They'll die happy!” And “I think we have a children of the corn situation happening here.” I do have to say, I am little jealous of Dot, who was all over Shawn, but not jealous at the same time, because if I did get a hug from Shawn I wouldn’t want him to be uncomfortable and freaked out about it. And I loved, loved how Juliet wasn’t upset, because she could clearly see Shawn was uncomfortable and that chick was crazy, but instead was amused by the whole Dot situation. Juliet and Shawn really fit well, and clearly because how well Juliet took in stride of Dot throwing herself at Shawn.

I do have to say one thing, I want to see a Henry (played by Corbin Bernsen) centered episode, and also no Shawn as a child the last few episodes? Okay, only two. But, I love those, well for ‘In for a Penny’ that was a nice touch, with a Juliet flashback, I completely approve. What can I say; I absolutely love seeing the relationship between father and Son, and also how it has evolve over the years. But the least few episodes, I don’t know, there hasn’t been much Henry. (Okay, it’s was just last weeks and I am being silly, don’t mind me. I think it’s because I watch ‘In for a Penny so many times, looking for the darn pineapple, which I should have followed be hunch after the first time I watched it, because my pineapple skills are great and I shouldn’t have doubted myself, shame on me; that I forgot that previous episode till I poked at it and remembered just a moment ago and I am going to go watch them again after Tao of Gus) But at least he was in this one more then last weeks, which if I remember right he really was only in one scene, which was actually short lived. It made me ecstatic to watch the psych-out from ‘In for a Penny’ from the keyword Sport for the Psych app, that made my night. But the opening scene of this episode did have banter between Henry and Shawn, and I do love their banters. I love everyone’s banters, that’s what makes this show so funny, the interaction between everyone.

So let me rewind a bit; I think I am just bitter about last week’s episode. Which really I did love it, and it was Juliet centered and I shouldn’t be bitter at the lack of Henry, because its one episode and William Shatner was amazing as Frank O’Hara. And I do love that episode. I should got back and watch, Shawn Interrupted and Deadman’s curve ball, to get a nice dose of Henry Spencer being a boss, do you remember the way he tackled that guy! I think I rewound and watch that a few times. It was awesome, and the banter at the end of the episode. Henry referring to a gun being pointed at Shawn again, “I am so tired of that happening.” I just haven’t watched those episodes in a while and I watch ‘In for a Penny’ too many times; I should go back and re-watch season 6. What am I thinking? Its just two episodes out of what, I think 86, 88, episodes. There was plenty of Henry in Last Nigh Gus, and I just can’t get over Shawn Interrupted when and also the way Shawn says, “That’s my daddy” absolutely loved it! And the awesome scene with Henry in Shawn rescues Darth Vader at the end, totally not surprised he would do that. Oh that teaser before the season started, had me on edge, dying to know what was going to happen and it did not disappoint! Plus, from the sneak peek for next weeks episode, it looks like there will be plenty of Henry. I think I just blindsided myself with my feelings lately of Henry Spencer is a boss, mood, which came at a bad time for current episodes, more referring to last week. What can I say? I think Henry is an amazing father. If I had to pick between Lucien Lacroix or Henry Spencer for adopting me, I would be baffled and at a loss for words. I wouldn’t know who to pick. I really wouldn’t. I don’t think I could choose, I would honestly probably reply with, “Can I have them both please?”

Anyways, I got way off track, back to Tao of Gus as I stated earlier, you can’t really take my word for it hilarity; you need to experience it for yourself. Now, I am going to go finish re-watching The Tao of Gus, then I shall come back and work on what today’s short story will be, and then I am going to re-watch season 6.

 Okay I lied, one more little side note before the story: I may miss 10^th Doctor, but I have to admit, Matt Smith looks like a fun guy, and that video with him, Karen Gillian, and Arthur Darvill, singing the Christmas song, was great. They look like they have a lot of fun together, and I do sort of feel bad now, in my harshness of feelings towards 11^th Doctor, and I think it was my anger and mourning for 10^th Doctor death that fueled my initial hatred towards 11^th. So 11^th Doctor, please forgive me, you may never be 10^th Doctor and I will always love him, but you are great in your own way. I have enjoyed these seasons with you, after I had calmed a little over 10^th Doctors death, and I do look forward to the Christmas Special and next season. I still love Doctor Who, but 10^th does and will always have a special place in my heart, because he was my first Doctor. But I no longer hate you 11^th for replacing 10^th. I think I will have to browse some of those suggested videos on YouTube from that Doctor Who cast Christmas song, because they look amusing… at least at some point, I still want to re-watch season 6 of Psych still.  But now I have an urge to go through an re-watch 11^th Doctor’s episodes, now that I don’t have that haze of you stole 10^th Doctor from us, point of view I had before. Which now I admit, I am a little ashamed at myself for. 10^th died to save Mr. Nobles life, and that was heart wrenching on its own, that whole scene, but 10^th Doctors last words, still echo in my mind. I admit, I balled my eyes out and I can feel it welling up again as I think about it.

*deep breath* To Psych, make me laugh. Well first, before I get distract again, I have been working and bouncing between this post and other things for almost three hours, without really getting anything done. Here is todays Short story, and then I can just focus on Psych. 

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Don’t Loose Hope

By Nekodra K.D.LaCroix

The soft sound of fallen dying leaves being crushed by a small and light foot was faintly heard by the surrounding autumn trees. Arctic blue eyes scanned the forest and continued to walk, ears perked and in search for sounds, any sounds. Nothing was heard, nothing but the broken leaves being crushed by her own feet. Not even the sound of a bird, or the rustle of the wind as it sings through the leaves. Deafening and eerie silence.

With a soft sigh, her eyes downcast with sorrow. Closing them tightly, she wrapped her arms around herself, shivering, she slipped to her knees. Leaves protested at her presence on them, and the damp dirt ground seeped through her pants, unnoticed.

Alone Alone, all alone with no one here.

She could feel the silence, the lack of a soul nearby come crashing down upon her. Suffocating on nothing, she choked and gasped. Her small and slender body shivering and jerking with the unpleasant senses of loss.

Alone Alone, all alone with no one here. The mantra sang through her mind, slipping, falling and nothing below.

Something faint and almost unnoticed reached her thoughts and she opened her eyes. Artic ice eyes met another pair, but a whisper that wasn’t that, but yet completely solid.

'I thought I was alone, how did I not see you before?' She asked quietly, as she shifted, at the coldness that ground offered.

'You weren't looking right.' He replied simply and held out his hand, with a silently joyful smile on his face that wasn’t there. 'I have missed you.' He added, watching her get to her feet.

'My love...' She smiled and nestled into a hug. 'I don't want to leave again.'

'I know, but you probably will, but don't worry.' He lifted her chin gently with his pale and cold index finger. 'We will wait, as we have before and will again. We know you care and we know it’s not often, but we just treasure our moments with you when they come. Though we know sometimes you don't know or realize they have, like now.'

She tilted her head and smiled sadly. 'I don't like that; I never have and never will. That they happen, but I don't know when. I don’t like not knowing, not remembering, it scares me.'

'Don't worry, in time I’ am sure you'll be able to. Just promise you'll keep working on it.' He asked a small and sad smile reaching his lips as he gazed into her eyes. Her icy usually bright eyes were now shimmering with tears.

Nodding, 'I will try. I don't mean to forget. I don't mean to not know. I don't mean to be slightly afraid to try. Its not that I don't want to, I do with all my heart. Its not that I don't believe.' Her eyes shifted downwards in shame. "Its just that I’ am afraid. It’s just that I don't believe in myself. I don't believe in my senses, like I should.'

'I understand, but I miss you. We all miss you. It’s not the same to see you everyday, but not truly get to be with you. We love you, and we long to be with you. Though we will be patient if we must, but doesn't mean we don't hope everyday that we will get to be with you this time, and stay that way.'

A small sniffle left her, and she clung to him tightly, tears streaming down her cheeks and onto his shirt. 'I love you too. I love all of you. I feel so bad, making you wait. That you have to be patient. That you have to hope that you'll get a chance to be with me. It makes me sad. It makes me feel bad. I wish I could be with you all, everyday. Like I should be able to. Like I should if I wasn't chained down here. Chain and trapped in mortal skin. Bound here, trapped here.' Her words left in a rush, afraid it wasn’t going to last much longer and she had to be sure he knew, he heard.

Lifting her chin again, he looked hard and sternly, and yet with softness into her eyes. 'Don't talk like that. Enjoy your time there, with who you can, for the time you have. That time won't last as long as we will. Remember that. We can wait, we have the time to spare. But that doesn't mean you can't spend time with both. Just work in it. You'll get it if you keep trying, you were getting close before.' He smiled again.

'That’s true. I will try to not lose hope.' She replied simply as it all faded, as silence settled back down, with a drowning suddenness. 'I don't want to lose hope, but sometimes I relapse.' As another tear slipped down her cheek. 'I love you. I love you all. I miss you too; it’s been far too long.' She slipped to her knees once more as the silence surrounds engulfs her. 'Soon, soon I won't let the silence return. Soon, it won't be able to.' She muttered with determined timid-ness.

Alone Alone, all alone with no one here, that’s a lie I am just looking wrong. Why can I see better!

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Afterword

There is and could be a lot more to this, and I do have most of the story and background in my head, but it’s not typed up. Just floating around in my head, like most of my stories. Although I now have three novel ideas started, and that’s something, okay two of them are mostly all in my head with only a page typed, one that’s way more figured out then this new one I started at 3 am last night. Then one that I actually have 40 pages typed up, (record for me) and notes for the ideas on book 2 and 3 for the series. That’s major progress for myself. I have never written 40 pages for a story before, and I have it all mostly figured out on where and what I want to happen. I am just a little stuck right now on book one, which I should finish more, before I actually start writing what I have planned for book two. So yay! Progress. But with my new idea, thinking more on it, it could be a series, and it could not be, and I am not sure which I want to do.

So one last quick side note and that is all for today:

   -Follow me on Twitter, because I will tweet every time I post on my blog and I will post a link.  Nekodra's Twitter and remember Sharing is Caring, retweet to your friends if they might enjoy this.

         -Have fun and toss me writing prompt, I would love the practice. I will credit you for tossing the prompt when I post the resulting story.

         -If you have never seen Psych, and you love comedies or crime shows, I highly recommend it! You will laugh so much. Psych airs Wednesday on USA. 

        - Please remember feedback, I can’t grow as a writer from silence.

        -Also remember unless stated otherwise, these stories and drawings belong to me, I wrote/drew them, please respect that.

                                             ~Nekodra K.D. LaCroix