To Dreams, Guts and Bucketlist

What do you want to be when you grow up?
I wanna be a vampire!--- in a movie

I was thinking today about what I used to always say in school when your teacher asks, what do you want to be when you grow up? I traded off between Actress and Writer. I technically succeeded in one, Writing. I did self publish on Amazon, WOVaN: Short Stories vol.1. Its only been out for a little over a month and I know who bought 5 of the 6 copies sold. That is okay, woot there is someone out there who I don't know that bought a copy, that is amazing to me. But what always still sits in the back of my mind, acting. Its not that I want to be a big star or anything, I don't really, I just want to be there. Just a small role, just to experience it all and have fun.

I was in a play in middle school, Annie. It was so much fun. I was only a orphan and had like two lines, not counting the musical numbers of course. I didn't care, it was fun. Insanely fun. I also did a video for a class in high school, where I got to play Hades. It was awesome, which I have shown a clip of and that is all that remains of the fun we had. We gave a copy to the teacher, who when I got a hold of him last I heard he wasn't teaching anymore and didn't know where those boxes are that has all that stuff. He said he'd look, but I never heard back from him, and what was on a friends computer was lost to the ether. But for this single clip of outtakes. But that was fun.

Here is the clip again if your curious, lol. It really is just a silly short clip of outtakes. I really wish the whole video hadn't been lost. There are a few other outtakes posted on youtube too.

I have to ask myself why? Why can't I get the guts to go out and pursue this other dream? Its not that I want to be the star. I just want to be there. I am more then content to be an extra, a small role who more in the background.

One: I don't think I would audition well I get so nervous so easily.
Two: to be honest I don't know how the hell to go about looking for chances to just play an extra in a movie. lol.

Well, part of my reason for writing. A little secret to what really drives me to write, the hopes that maybe, just maybe someday down the road someone- somewhere will want to turn one of my books into a movie. Maybe I could convince them to let me play one of the minor vampire roles.

I will keep my fingers crossed.

If I had a official bucket list:

1. Play a Vampire in a movie/show
2. Travel to just any and everywhere I get the chance to
3. Go see SNL live (meeting the cast would be an awesome bonus, lol)
4. Never stop dreaming
5. Keep writing and publishing my stories
6. Play an extra in a movie
7. Don't give up

I suppose now I do have an official bucket list, though can I do that? Put some like never stop dreaming and never give up? Eh, who cares its my bucket list right? That feels right, that sounds right for me. Those are my life goals.

Onto Writing

On some other notes, I have been working on AVRC which is just a short easily way to say A Vampire Romantic Comedy, which I have a possible better name to call it other then by its genre, but still thinking about it. For now I will just stick with the nickname AVRC.

Though I am taking a break from working on it today, because I am stressing myself out a little. I mentioned earlier on twitter that the more I work on AVRC, the more disappointed I get in the lack of comedy that I want there to be. I love comedy, I love to laugh- I suck at cracking a joke. I am the Laughter not the Comedian. I wasn't joking when I also stated I wish to collaborate with Seth Meyers. He is the head writer at SNL and from interviews I have seen, its been said he is fun to collaborate with. I want AVRC to be a movie on day and there is a character I wrote for Seth in AvRC. How awesome would that be to collaborate the script with him and then also work with him should it actually be made into a movie? I also mention or Rick Gualtieri, because he also really funny. I absolutely love Bill the Vampire and the rest of the books in the series (eagerly waiting for the next). I am sure I got weird looks whenever I would read in public because I couldn't help but burst out laughing, and I was at least chuckling quietly to myself on every page.

Personal Life and Pets

Mellie Lane

Also pets, I have gotten some new pets since the last time I really made any actual posts. So here are some adorable pictures to share of my two kittens and Chinese water dragon.

JarJar Binks

My kittens were born May 7th 2012. There is Mellie Lane and JarJar Binks, yes as in Star Wars. He is orange and does not shut up, always talking. Seemed to fit, lol.

 They used to be so small, they already are pretty big now, just 8 months old and they are so big compared to how small they were at just a few months. Though Mellie is still pretty small and quite a trouble maker. For those who know SNL, we have gotten to calling her Gilly when scolding her. As in Gilly from SNL played by Kristen Wiig. lol, it amuses us.

My Chinese water dragon, birth is unknown other then a few months, so we decided to just go with Oct. 31st just because. His/her (won't know till about a year old) name is Jade. We have just gotten to referring to Jade as male. He is pretty cute and currently small, but he could grow to be 2-3 ft! In some cases Chinese Water Dragons can get to be 4ft! Crazy.

Its so funny, Mellie is obsessed with watching Jade, determined to try and get in the tank. She hasn't been successful. Its so funny, she paces around the tank, looks at it from every angle. Mellie is the hunter of the two. Which Mellie and JarJar are brother and sister. If I spot a spider and point it out to Mellie, she will eat if for me. lol.

Movies:

Image found on Google

Well if you follow me on twitter @Nekodra then you know I have been all over the movie I Kissed a Vampire. Its a vampire musical! How awesome is that? I saw that and I thought I have to see this and I loved it. Absolutely loved it. I now have the soundtrack as well. If you enjoy Vampires and Musicals, you should check it out. Its on Netflix, iTunes and I am sure other places.

I love that now I have music to listen to that is about vampires. I love it! My top favorite songs would have to be 'Little Peck' and 'Just a Drop'. The movie is a bit silly which is what makes it awesome and the music is so fun. Dylan and Sarah are an adorable couple, I love it. I don't want to spoil it, so I won't say too much more, but I loved it. All of it. It has joined my list of top favorite vampire movies, next to Interview with a Vampire, Cirque Du Freak, Fright Night 2012, Van Helsing,and Dark Shadows. I think that is it for my top favorite ones, and I have to say I almost want to put it as my number one favorite vampire movie, but I feel like I am betraying those I have known for years like Interview with a Vampire, but I don't know. I really loved I Kissed a Vampire.

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Okay, think I have ramble on long enough. If you enjoy vampires, please take a look at my collection of vampire short stories on amazon. WOVaN: Short Stories vol.1

~Nekodra K.D. LaCroix
Nekodra-blog@hotmail.com
@Nekodra

From a Hiatus of Laughter

Yeah, I appeared to disappear for a while, didn't I? Distracted mostly. I have been working so much on A Vampire Romantic Comedy, book one is actually nearly done dialogue/script wise, yay! Nearly time to turn it into the novel. I am excited and I hope its as good as I think it is, and yes you read right, I did say book one. Though really, book one and book two might still just end up as one book the more I look at it. Actually yeah, I think it it will end up still one story. So scratch that, book one and two are back to one book. Probably a part one and part two sort of thing. Mostly because I like the title ideas, A Vampire Romantic Comedy In This Beginning and A Vampire Romantic Comedy In Hell. It amuses me, I want to break it up into two technically separate stories just to use those titles. lol.

Oh and for those curious, or something, I did make some adjustments and additions to the Dream Cast. Here is a lovely picture reference to how the main character list looks like and my dream cast of who I picture playing these characters should I ever end up lucky enough to see this story turned into a movie/ pretty much who I picture the characters as while I write and think about the story. By this point its so hard to picture the characters played by anyone else just because of how much time I have spent visualizing this story as I write it:

 Shhh, yes I have cast myself as Nataline >.> Let me have my dreams, this is a dream cast list after all. Annie and Ryan, I cast as such because, though they are more minor characters compared to the others, I pictured the characters looking similar to them and then when I was watching SNL I realized that they were perfect for those two characters. So while say Mikael, Matt, Theo and John where designed to fit the looks of Bill, Seth, David and Jimmy; Annie and Ryan were actually design first and those two just seem perfect for the part. Jason originally was a toss up between being Liev Schreiber and Fred Armisen and I finally made a decision on Fred. I also finally picked someone for Allison, for the longest time I had no one in mind for the main female lead, I thought why not stick with the SNL theme of most of the characters being played by current or past SNL actors and once I thought that, well I had to go with Kristen Wiig. She is an amazing and dynamic actress. All the actors/actress on this list are amazing!

I still will keep my fingers crossed as I write this story, that should this be made into a movie that all of them will want to play their characters. In case you don't know who these people here are their names and links are to their IMDB.com page:

Mikael: Bill Hader
Lord Gov: Jason Sudeikis
Matt: Seth Meyers
Allison: Kristen Wiig
Theo: David Tennant
John: Jimmy Fallon
Cody: Timothy Omundson
Annie: Vanessa Bayer
Jason: Fred Armisen
Ryan: Andy Samberg

But yeah, that is the list how it currently stands. Just felt like sharing so you can picture it properly when I show a glimpse of some of the dialogue in this post. A sample if you will. But what to show without showing too much? hmmmm... Gah, I am having a hard time finding a good quote that is interesting but doesn't give too much away....

A Vampire Romantic Comedy -Script-

by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

Synopsis:

Two male vampires and one mortal girl, equals love triangle.

An evil vampire master back from the hell.

What more do you need, what more do you want?

Shenanigans? Comedy? Don't worry, its all there.

Did I mention a vigilantly vampire hunter?

This isn't your typical romantic comedy.

--

[Nat]

To be honest, not sure if its sunk in or it I am dreaming. Possibly hallucinating. I know I didn't pass out, I never drink enough to pass out, I nurse my drinks... Vampire, really?

[ Mikael]

Yes.

[Nat]

Sunlight?

[ Mikael]

Think of yourself as ginger. Your going to get more pale, so those faint freckles you got are going to stand out more, and your just sunburn easier. Wear layers, walk in the shade when possible, and don't try to sun tan. It won't be pretty, all crispy and depending on the severity it can take a while to heal, can end it death.

--

[Mikael]

Comes into the room, lips locked with another guy.

Pushes him to his knees. Waving Nataline over.

[Nat]

Walks over

John?

[Mikael]

Don't name him, just feed.

[Nat]

Fuck you, that's my brother!

Dawns on her

Eww, you kissed my brother!

[Mikael]

I care why? You were hungry, I snatched a snack. Don't complain.

--

[Matt]

Theo can come too.

[Theo]

Wait, what is going on?

[Matt]

The three of us are going on a Tri-date

[Alli]

Not a date

[Matt]

A Trial date: that is what the tri completely stood for, I swear, not Trio date, but trail date.

[Alli]

Sure, but still has the word date in it.

[Matt]

Fine, the three of us are going to a movie together. Snuggling close in a dark theatre, Alli snug betwe-

[Alli]

Matt!

--

Okay, that is all. I think those are okay to show, they are short and keep out anything that could be saying too much too soon, but perhaps are interesting enough to make you wonder what is going on? Right? Maybe? Perhaps? When its published you will totally buy it now, because your curiosity is peaked, right? Help build a massive fan base so someone with money it tempted to fund making this into a movie, right? Right? - okay, I am done, I swear. ^_^ Just having fun, promise. Though I do hope others enjoy this story and much as I enjoy it.

So, like I have said, I an writing this as a script first, which is nearly done and then I shall begin the novelization of it. Well, technically I have written some of it as a novel, the first few scenes, but once the script is fully done I was then of course actually focus on turning it into a novel. ^_^ I am excited.

Other Posts where I talk about A Vampire Romantic Comedy:
Giddy Delusions of Dreams: Posted June 9th 2012
Dreaming with Starry Eyes: Post June 16th 2012
Mr. Kill Without Asking: Posted July 1st, 2012

Hmm, its been over a month since my last post, do I have anything else to talk about? I am currently watching a Psych Marathon on Ion which is sweet. Season 7, gods I can't wait for new episodes. Please let Henry be okay! I am excited and nervous! I also hope they were able to do that Psych Musical episode.

Doctor who is due to start soonish, I believe. I need to found out if there is a set date or not. I am also excited but nervous. I am going to cry so much when Amy and Rory leave! I know it. I have seen trailers for it, and I am excited, just not going to think about the sadness. If I heard right there will be another Neil Gaimen episode, yay. Loved the Doctors Wife episode!

Woot, shows will be starting up again soon. Yay!

I wonder when SNL starts? Man, I would love to see it live, one day I hope. But it requires getting the money to fly down from Washington to New York, so hotel fare as well, and I guess from what I gathered from the NBC SNL website you can't buy tickets, but you enter a lottery?... huh? Does that mean I pay for it if I win or are the tickets free? There wasn't a price for tickets? There is also standby you can show up at 7am and possibly get tickets..? I am tempted to enter the lottery, in fact I may enter anyways and try my luck, I just cross my fingers is later in the season that way if I somehow win tickets for, I can save up for the flight and such. But perhaps if I don't win, I could save up and later in the season fly down and spend a week or so in New York and see about stand by, but then if I can't get tickets then I can spend a week in New York and make it a vacation so that its not a waste if I can't get tickets. Lol, perhaps I will fly down on a Friday and leave on a Sunday so I have two chances for standby. Sounds solid, right?

Still for a moment on the subject of SNL, I have watch so much SNL lately, lol. I can't get enough, while I am looking forward to new episodes, I may have said this before but it will be weird not to have Kristen Wiig and Andy Samberg, but at least Seth will still be there. I guess he guest hosted or something on a show called 'The Today Show' or I don't know, but I guess rumors start flying that he would leave SNL and co-host that show permittedly. but he squashed that rumor pretty hard, saying how much he loves working on SNL and its an election year, he wasn't going to miss out on that. When I read that, I was pretty stoked and I laughed. Weekend Update with Seth Meyers is one of my most favorite parts of SNL, it will be a very sad day if/when Seth Meyers leaves SNL. I Just hope he keeps enjoying working there for a very long time. ^_~

Okay, I have yammered on enough. I have shown I am still alive and still working on my stories. Now enough chitchat and back to working on A Vampire Romantic Comedy.

Have a good day, while you all enjoy the icky sunny warmth, I am going to huddle in the shade of the indoors with the A/C and write about Vampires. Sexy Bill Hader, Seth Meyers, David Tennant and Jason Sudeikis Vampires.Yummy. And continue to watch this Psych Marathon until it ends and then probably more SNL.

~Nekodra
Nekodra-blog@Hotmail.com
@Nekodra

Dreaming with Starry Eyes

"You have to dream big while bracing for a possible fall, right?" -Nekodra

Jimmy Fallon (Image from google)

I am so giddy and excited! I finally thought of so many scenes for what I have decided to call: A Vampire Romantic Comedy. Its simple and to the point. I actually have dialogue now! I like to think its funny. It makes me laugh, does that count?
Well it also amused my boyfriend, so hopefully its decent. He already has a favorite character. Yay!


Goals this weekend: 
-Continue adding scenes to A Vampire Romantic Comedy
-Continue restructuring Luminescence in the Darkness
-Work on WOVaN vol. 01 if I get both samples. back

A Vampire Romantic Comedy:
I do still wish I could work with Seth Meyers or just a comedian to help make it funnier. I say Seth Meyers, because I know (according to his Imdb) that he is a Head writer on SNL. But really, I think anyone from SNL would be fun to work with. Hence also why 4 of the dream cast members are/or were once on SNL.

Jason Sudeikis and Seth Meyers on SNL (image from google)

Speaking of dream cast members, I added another. Here is how it currently looks for My Dream Cast:
Bill Hader, Seth Meyers, David Tennant, Timothy Omundson, Jimmy Fallon, Jason Sudeikis and me as main love interest's best friend. ^_^

Though things could change, turns out the character I was working with David Tennant in mind took some odd turns and now I might swipe Bill Hader's as the actor and David Tennant's will get Bill's original character. >.< So there is shuffling and changing, but for the most part I want to have those as my dream cast members. So I will need to think of something so David Tenannt is still there, because I am unsure if I will be keeping Bill's original character. I hope that isn't confusing, half the characters still don't have names and the other half, are only partly fully finalized.We will see how it goes.

Regardless I am making leaps and bounds in the story! That makes me happy. I am first writing it as a script and then I am going to adapt it to a novel and my goal is to have it published by February, we will see how it turns out too. That should be enough time. I have the plot written out, its just a matter of filling in those gaps and thinking of funny one liners. I have a few. Teehe, I am rather proud of a MineCraft pick-up line I created. That whole conversation is one big 'Nerd Alert!' which makes me giddy and double over with laughter. /sing "...Nerds are sexy and you know it.." /shot

Speaking of changing words in songs, I am loving working as a game tester. Though... There are frustrations just like any other job. I won't say details, NDA and all. But I will say, we need to make a Testers soundtrack. lol, we have broken into song, changing words to ones that apply to game testing more then once. I love the people I work with! Work days are full of laughter and nerd. Its heaven.

WOVaN:
WOVaN I believe I mentioned was finished story wise, now is major edit time. I am so excited! Because of the subject matter, I am shooting to have it ready and on Amazon by October. Which feels so far away, but that is what I am shooting for. The cover art hasn't been started yet, so I'd have to wait on that anyways. Plus I can't afford my new laptop till next payday (Thorsday! so close! -note: misspelled on purpose-) and I need that to polish that stylized title I was talking about. Which again, I think it is boss. I can't wait to share it.

I sent a sample of WOVaN to an editor and also another person. I have gotten one back and once I get the other back then maybe I can decided if I will go with a professional editor. I haven't quite decided if I can afford/ will go with a professional editor, yet. x_x I don't know. Its expensive and what if I never sell enough copies to make back the money spend on an editor and the cover commission? I am also doing my hardest not to mess with the stories or any of my own editing yet until then. Just patiently twiddling my thumbs and focusing my attention on another projects so I am not idling sitting there panicking over how horrible story probably really is: They are going to think I am an idiot to want to publish this and its not ready yet to see the light of day! Yes, I panic easily. Yes, that is pretty much quotes from my mini self in my head, you can add to it, her running around like a chicken with its head cut off. WOVaN is my first to be published baby, I am worried its not as good as it could be, but sometimes you just have to take a deep breath, put the pen/keyboard down and let your baby fly.

o.o Yeah, I kinda think what was a weird metaphor too.....

Some quotes I shared in the past from WOVaN:

"...Patted paws with deadly claws scratched the dirt and another howl rang through the woods, deafening from behind her, the hot breath sending terror through her body..." - WOVaN vol.01 by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

"...head lulled, his vision swimming before him, seeing three, four, five versions of his attacker drifting in and out in front him; like a swarm of identical ghosts weaving in and out of each other as they sneered at him..." - WOVaN vol.01 by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

"-crash from the front room, both in unison looked in that direction. Before their feet touched the ground, Seth found himself against-" WOVaN vol.01 by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

New quotes from my projects:

[N] "-Gee wiz, way to make a girl feel special."

[E] "You didn't let me finish, it was quite lucky. Fate, clearly. That I ended up with you."

[N]"You make me feel all bubbly and warm my un-beating heart."

  -A Vampire Romantic Comedy by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

[N] "..and I won't be too much of a pain in the neck. Unless you want me to be."

[G] "Cheeky, I like it. You can certainly be a pain in my neck."

[E] "I don't know either of you."

  -A Vampire Romantic Comedy by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

[V] "Uh- Shit..."

[N]"You knew about Vampires and NEVER told me?!"

Starts punching his arm, pissed.

[V] "Ahh-You have enhanced strength, please remember that."

[N] "Who said I forgot?!"

   -A Vampire Romantic Comedy by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

"...She stiffed at the sound of heavy foot steps. She had dropped her guard in a moment of confusion. Angry at herself for getting distracted, it would cost her life, this mistake..." -Luminescence in the Darkness by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

End of Quotes 


Reply to Comments:
I want to say thank you, Rick Gualtieri who's book, Bill the Vampire, I am currently reading and absolutely loving! Laughing out loud almost every page. I want to thank Rick, for your comment and tips on my post Little Advice/Help
 

^_^ It helps to know that what I was thinking and so far what I have been doing is good- on the right track so to say. Its reassuring, so thank you! Also no worries about the cover art, its all her own work. She is doing a picture for the banner on my blog right now, and I have seen her Work In Progress. Plus, also I have known her for about 8-9 years, from my close knit high school group of friends.

Miscellaneous Other Things:

Last post, The Giddy Delusions of Dreams, I wrote the short story For Evergreen. I actually kind of liked how it turned out. I am thinking of perhaps adding to it (editing it). I may put it in WOVaN Vol 2 and add more to the beginning of the story. Little more of how and why it got to that point, but we will see. Would it take away from it?

I have also since that post, added to my document of my Silly SNL monologue ideas and making fun of my own stories with skit ideas. Is that sad? >.> One: doubtful I would get a chance to host SNL; and two: doubtful my ideas are up to par for their show. But heh, why not. It amuses me. I am having fun and that is all that matters.

Also on the subject of SNL-ish. I mention I added Jimmy Fallon to the dream cast, I watch Late Night with Jimmy Fallon on occasion with my dad and a recent episode he did an adorable video with Carly Rae Jepsen and the Roots 'Call me, Maybe'. It is forever what I see now when I hear that song and I makes me enjoy it even more.

I love Jimmy Fallon, I really hope he and at least most of not all of my dream cast members will want to play their respective characters- if I even somehow by some amazing luck, get to make A Vampire Romantic Comedy into a movie. Heck, I would be A-okay if they want to swap characters around! And Hell, if they want to change the story, add what surely would be better dialogue, I could could die on the spot and be euphoric! As I said, I would love to collaborate with them. Hey, nothing wrong with dreaming big.

I will leave you with that and now I will get back to work on A Vampire Romantic Comedy. Can't make the dream come true if I never finish the story!

Enjoy! And if you want to read random short stories...That I should probably go over again and edit them better. x.x But here are links..
The Short Stories Guide
The WOTDS Guide

~Nekodra
Nekodra-Blog@Hotmail.com
@Nekodra

The Giddy Delusions of Dreams

Remember last post, Passionate Guilt of a Writer, where I started off talking about Luminescence in the Darkness? Well started with a quote, which I am actually quite fond of.  

Seth Meyers (Image found using Google)

"Sorrow for what I did to a world I created before I delved to image it's beauty, but to preserve the planet would mean the story never happen." -Nekodra

Is that too egotistical to be proud of/attached to my own quotes? I also rather love:

"Our Milky Way Galaxy is but an atom of dust in an endless mansion, that in all of existence, has never been dusted." -Nekodra

“I am an Immortal Soul, locked in mortal skin, fearing I'll never be free again.”-Nekodra

Anyways, in Passionate Guilt of a Writer, I talked about how I am an idiot for not watching SNL actively till now? Well, I was going to start from the very beginning (which I have watched the first 5), but I am being a fan girl for Bill Hader and Seth Meyer (Seth has the most wonderful smile *Swoon*) and (Bill is so hilarious when doing game show hosts/suits are uber sexy, well he is sexy. Also Stefon is just adorable. Yes, I completely ship Stefon and Seth Meyers from weekend up >.> *cough* ) Also it was Bill Hader's birthday the other day and I am sure he won't see this but, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

So anyways, I am watching more recent episodes. I do plan to go back to the later years at some point. I want to also go through Jimmy Fallon's years, because enjoy Late night with Jimmy Fallon and the episode he hosted was good times. When people talk about Justin Beiber, I laugh because I will forever only ever see Jimmy Fallon's Justin impression. You know, Jimmy is pretty fine looking himself. I wouldn't mind a hug from those three, Jimmy, Bill, and Seth. And being Comedians, I bet they are fun so hang out with. But anyways, all episodes are good times (that I have seen), not every skit, but on the whole- Awesomesauce. I started watching an episode with Jim Carry the other night, loved that guy since I was a kid and I just remembered I never finished watching it. I had to go to bed, early alarm for work. I am sad the current season is over, but breaks are needed, totally understandable. I bare no ill will, just want to watch more. I have no new shows to watch till fall, everything I watch has ended. Though there are a few new summer shows that look promising.

Spoiler for Shows Warning:

Corbin Bernsen (Image from)

Psych:
T.T I am so worried for Henry! That was such an evil cliff hanger for the summer. I keep consoling myself that its Psych, they are not going to kill off a main character, right?! Right!?? And just because he is at filming, doesn't mean he is alive, because there are almost always flashbacks. And did you see the shirt Corbin Bernsen wore? Mean, taunting and mean. Lol. I know its to get hype and all that, and I know they end seasons like this to make sure you want to watch next season- BUT no, no you don't, those who love the show don't need a cliff hanger to want to watch next season. We already will want to, sure it makes us anticipate it, but still. I love the show don't get me wrong, just worried for Henry. I have my top favorite crush characters Shawn and Lassie, and then I have my top favorite Boss character which is Henry. I believe I mentioned this before in Shadows of Unwavering Blue, I think he is a wonderful father. Him and Lucien LaCroix from Forever Knight are the best fathers.

Doctor Who:
It wasn't long ago that over twitter Karen announced that our wonderful Amy and Rory Pond filmed their last episode. I am sure when it airs I will ball my eyes out. I am also super curious about the new companion, I saw her in the Titanic mini series that aired this last April, and she seems like a lot of fun and a perfect fit for a Doctor Companion. I am torn between wanting to see this new companion, but not, because seeing the new companion means we have lost Amy and Rory. Makes me tear up thinking about it.

Red Dwarf X:
I remember reading somewhere that while it would be ready to air this summer, of course it won't actually air till fall. *table flip* But I am eager to see it, from all the spoiler free reviews on those who got to see the filming. I hear its going to be great and still very classic Red Dwarf style. Yay! Arnold J. Rimmer, can't wait to see him again. I may have to go re-watch it on Netflix again this summer before it airs.

Vampire Diaries:
I finally watched the season finale the other day. I nearly had a heart attack when for a moment, no more then once they made it seem liked Damon was going to die. I also nearly cried because he was going to die alone because Elena chose the other brother. But you know what, she can have him, that means Damon is free for the taking. ^_~

Bill Hader as Stefon and Seth Meyers on SNL

End of Spoilers.

Side note on SNL:
You know you've watched too much SNL when you began writing various monologue ideas for various possible scenarios of how/why your getting the amazing chance to host SNL.

(Quick edit: Did I mention I also wrote a skit idea that made fun of my own stories? >.> )

My Book Projects:

Bill Hader as Stefon on SNL

I also started working on a movie script idea for a Vampire Romantic Comedy with my dream cast staring, Bill Hader, Seth Meyers, and David Tenannt (As Vampires of course). Then also Timothy Omundson (not as a vampire only because there needs to be some humans). Still only the very bare bones of plot ideas, so there aren't many characters, yet. There is also the lead lady, who I will foolish dream about playing but I know it won't happen, hence the more minor character that will be involved enough to get a scene or two with each dream cast male actor >.> *cough* But as gun-ho as I feel about it; because it feels like being on the set with those guys would be so fun and I would finally have gotten a chance to be on a movie set, but I must be realistic in my dreaming.

WOVaN is priority one, because I want to publish it first. I also want to get Modern Magic book 1 flushed out enough to seek a professional editor. So the Vampire Romantic Comedy will be very side project, but I need to research writing scripts. So if anyone has any good tips about writing scripts, toss them my way if you have a moment. It seems like it would be easier to write scripts, because its not full detailed writing like a book, but that will probably actually be harder for me and I still need to find out how they are formatted.

Back to WOVaN:
 Is coming along wonderfully! I almost have Vol. 1 ready to seek a professional editor. All but two stories are complete, and those that are complete are also as flush out as I can probably get them. Then the two stories that are left, still need an ending. >.< but what is written is pretty/mostly flushed out. So once I can think of an ending, I think its time to hunt for a professional editor. The cover has been commissioned, but I haven't gotten a rough sketch yet to approve, but I am patiently and eagerly waiting. Its being done by my awesomely talented friend, Miha, her DeviantArt. I did however sketched what will be, I guess the best description is icon for the series. A stylized version of the titled. I think its boss if I do say so myself. Once I get my new laptop and can flush it out more on the computer, I will show it off. I also have a few stories started and roughly written for WOVaN Vol. 2.

(Little edit: A few hours after this post was initial made, I finished up those two stories. Yay! So if anyone has advise on finding an editor, I am all ears. I have just never done this before and I will admit, I am really nervous. But, I must grow skin like stone and see how this turns out- once I find an editor of course.)

I know I haven't posted a short story in a few posts. Bad blogger, bad! I know its a pathetic excuse, but I have been so focused on my current projects that its hard to pull my mind away and write something completely random, but for you, My Dear Readers, I will try. This is going to be something completely off the top of my head, free writing, lets see if I will let myself post if after seeing what happens:

For Evergreen
by Nekodra K.D. LaCroix

She stared out the water beaten window out at the evergreen trees, the amply source nickname of the state. Evergreen they are, and they have the house surrounded and isolated. The rhythm of the relentless rain was reassuring, relaxing, and for a moment she closed her eyes and let the heavy pounding of the sound carry her away down a calming river blanket of warmth. Nothing else existed but that sound and meditated silence of the world. A clap of thunder and everything swirled downwards, an interrupting sound, breaking her trance. Not that she had anything wrong against a good thunderstorm, it was just unexpected. She looked out at the trees again, baby birds just learning to fly fluttered from branch to branch with frenzied excitement, or trying to find a branch to shelter from the rain.

"Have you come to a decision yet?" He came from the front room, his golden eyes blazed in hunger. The door banged loudly against the wall, surely leaving yet another mark on the scarred wall. He growled like the wolf he was, cornering his prey.

"I already give you my answer." She stubbornly continued watching the green dance in the wind, taking it the hundred of subtle shades from bright lime to deep forest and everything in-between.

"And I am giving you a chance to be the smart girl I am beginning to think doesn't exist." He stomped almost comically like a drama queen, but he was a guy who is nothing but serious and cold.

"I guess you were mistaken." She knew those words would begin today's list of regrets, but she was reaching the point of no return. The break in her sanity people jokingly believed she reached years ago.

His hand gripped his chin, forcing her to look at him. Claws digging wounds into her cheek, which tried to rapidly heal themselves but the freshly populated skin cells found themselves blocked by the hard cold talons. The skin protested and cried in panic and that hurt worse then the initial tear and he knew it.

"Haven't you realized its hopeless? He never cared about you, if he did, he would have taken you with him."

"He assumed you'd follow him, rather then be petty by going for me. But, I guess he never calculated your stupidity."

"Whats that suppose to mean?!" He tossed her face away with a disgusted, causing her to hit the window with a sickening crack, spider rivets snaked out from the center of impact along the once smooth surface of the glass, but she hid the relief of her wounds now able to heal.

"If you had taken a moment to actually think, you would have followed him and do you want to know why?" She smirked in a taunting sing-song voice, pausing for his answer.

Uncrossing his arms, he pulled back his hand to slap her across the face. The sound echoed in the small cement room, "Stop with you condescending tone and tell me!"

"Then you could have caught up with him and dueled him on a more even playing field-"

She didn't flinched as her face suddenly splattered in his dark cold blood, a silver stake protruding from his chest, only inches from her face.

"Sweetheart, be careful, don't let any of that get in your mouth." Peering out from behind the shocked dying form before her.

"-You see, he never actually left town, in fact he was counting on you being petty. Ironically to stab you in the back." Carefully wiping blood away from her mouth.

He choked, mouth flapping open and close, unable to form any words, but he had clearly understood hers by the angered shock, the murder in his eyes, they then rolled up, as he crumpled to the floor with a last spasm before stiffening in death.
(The end)

Actually wow, interesting. I actually kind of like it. It actually- I caught myself off guard when it crossed my mind to have the blood suddenly splatter across her face. I hope that made up for the lack of short stories I posted.

Aright, I think that is it for the blog today. I am off to work of WOVaN and Luminescence in the Darkness. Please while feeling free to share this with friends, I did write this story, quite literally in 30 minutes, so remember it was written by me. Thank you. Enjoy!

If you want to read more short stories:
Short Stories Guide
WOTDS Guide

~Nekodra K.D. LaCroix
Nekodra-Blog@Hotmail.com
@Nekodra

The Passionate Guilt of a Writer

"Sorrow for what I did to a world I created before I delved to image it's beauty, but to preserve the planet would mean the story never happen." -Nekodra

My feelings for the world I created in Luminescence in the Darkness, my Sci-fi Vampire story that I am writing specifically to submit to Asimov Sci-fi short story magazine. The story I recently send to a few friends to get their opinions and editing what they noticed. I had a feeling that towards the end it gets a little confusing and sort of felt a little flimsy plot wise, and that was confirmed. I starting to work out fixes, which of course came to me moments after sending it off. As I was waiting for the feedback, not wanting to really work on the story itself till after I get the feedback...well, back. I began really thinking about what a planet would look like to evolve the (what my boyfriend amusingly dubbed and has now stuck in my mind) Vamplien race. I started sketching out plants based in creating or consuming blood, in place of making sugar. Plants that exist without needing sunlight- which just clicked in my head, Chemosynthesis (That is the word that's been on the tip of my tongue for weeks) instead of Photosynthesis. I have grown to love the beauty and interesting differences yet similarities to Earth. A planet quite literal a world of Vampires. Is anyone really surprise that I would do this? I hope not. This is my imagination at work and I have a probably unhealthy love and admiration for Vampires. I am surprise I didn't write it sooner, to be honest.

The more I sketch and work to create the ecosystem of this world, the guiltier I feel for what I have done to it. The more I would love to visit this planet, though be careful, getting too close to a plant will leave you tired and a little drained. I can't wait to get my new laptop, which will take me about a month to save up for, but I can be patient. >.< I will be patient. The laptop I am eying and plan to get is the Acer Iconia, once I get it I can take my sketches for the Vamplien home world and put color to it. Which I will share when I do. Once I am done with this blog post, I plan to continue with the research of things so the science is decently believable. Its a crazy universe, I like to think there could possibly be a planet of Vampires. There is a world that is made up of burning ice- 6 Real Planets that put Science Fiction to Shame.

But aside from that, I know I need to tear down and restructure the story. Though I am a little unsure how I want to restructure it. So aside from some research to put a decent amount of science behind my world and the occasional sketch as I think of new plants, I feel I need to take a step back from the story. Let my unconscious muse over how to reassemble, then the next time I look at the story the answers will come to me like magic (because our unconscious mind is amazingly powerful and never stops working.)

So though I have been talking a lot about Luminescence in the Darkness, doesn't mean I have forgotten my WOVaN project, or Modern Magic. To be honest the only reason I haven't worked on Modern Magic but for an occasion added note here and there is the slight laziness and daunting task of typing up that entire notebook of notes. x.x I kinda wish I could pay someone to type it up for me, but I doubt they could read my handwriting. I feel guilty though. Its not only typing it up, but then rearranging the notes into the proper story order. I feel guilty. I hope Ember, Cole, and the world of Modern Magic isn't too upset and plotting my death. Though, if it was at the hands of Cole, I would be okay with that. But I really should make the habit of typing up a few pages a day, otherwise it will just keep piling up. I know, I know. Bad Writer, bad. WOVaN, I need to step back from to think how I wanted to conclude/continue the main story of the collection. I plan to look at that today and make some headway on that. Heh, 3 projects, my brain is overwhelmed, but I will finish them. I will. Slow and steady wins the race, correct?

Movies & such:
Putting projects aside for the moment, let me talk about a few other things before I head back to working on them and finishing this post.

Bill Hader (Agent W) -Josh Brolin (Young Agent K) & Will Smith (Agent J) in MIB III (Image from Google)

Men in Black III:
I just saw it and it was awesome. Your always iffy about sequels and 3rd's, then when its been years and years since the last one, you worry it will ruin things. Your treasured memories of the originals. But, honestly. I think they did a wonderful job. Wonderful. I don't want to say too much, because if you go in with high expectations, then it ruins the movie for you. So I will say this, go see it. If you enjoyed the first 2 or even just the first. Just see it, let your curiosity wonder if they did okay, and watch the movie. Besides, just because I loved it, doesn't mean you will. See for yourself. ^_^

SNL:

Bill Hader & Seth Meyers on SNL (Image from Google)

While I have known of the show all my life, I only saw random episodes here and there. Why I never watched more is beyond me. Love the show. Always enjoyed the random ones I saw, so why I didn't actively watch it every Saturday, I will never understand. But since staying with my dad, I watch it every week. I have fallen for Bill Hader. He is my favorite, while the current cast is awesome and its sad to see Kristen Wiig leave, but we will see more of her, I hear she was many projects in the works. But while the entire cast is amazing, Bill Hader is my favorite. I have seen many of his other movies and liked him, I didn't realize his name and take notice, (that tends to happen a lot. I will like someone, but then they play one role that really sticks out and then you realize you have seen and enjoyed them in many other movies, you just didn't really put the name to the face and keep tabs.) But anyways, Bill Hader is awesome and I am slowly working on watching all of SNL through Netflix, which has from the beginning till 2010.

Bill Hader (Image found with Google)

While my main love is Vampires, I do love a good laugh. I love wit. Vampires and Wit, if you want to know what to use to seduce me. Get a Vampire comedian, scratch that, be a Vampire comedian and seek me out. Turning Bill Hader in to a Vampire wouldn't be a bad idea, also. <.<; *cough* Please?

No,no, who knows if he would want that, don't force it upon someone. That is how we get those depressed Vampires. So anyways, I tend to fall for Vampires and those who can get me to snort. Yes, if I laugh hard enough, I snort. People seem to think its cute and try to get me to do it again. >//< My boyfriend thought about making a drinking game with it, but discovered he was too good at making me laugh and everyone would have died. 110 shots in 10 minutes. I think it was also 2 am and everything is funny at 2am, I blame sleep deprivation for that insane fit of giggles with many snorts. My nickname on one of my softball teams was Laughalot. Get it, Lancelot, Laughalot? 9 year old's are so witty. I think in middle school someone used to call me Gigglebox...?

I love humor, just because I have my grouchy days doesn't mean I enjoy being upset. In fact I hate being upset. I love my boyfriend, he somehow knows the perfect moment to insert something humorous when I am crying or ranting, and turns my emotions on a dime. I love him, so much. Now if only he was a vampire... <.< I am kidding, love him even if he isn't a vampire. But have you ever laughed and cry at the same time? Its a strange sensation.

Back to Vampires and wit- I have a list of actors who I would love so see play a role of a Vampire, Bill Hader has just been added to the list. If I manged to miss it on his IMDB list of movies and he has played a vampire, you better leave a comment with the name of said movie. Though, I can't really take David Tennant off the list, >.< so close though in the Fright Night remake, which I still love. Watched again last night. Also not so sure about Nicholas Cage, Love Bites, that was a....interesting movie. >.< I think I will keep him on the list, in hopes of another Vampire role, though again...that movie is strange, was he even really a Vampire, or just crazy? I may need to watch it again, I don't remember it very well. I also still need to go see Dark Shadows with Johnny Depp, then he can be crossed off, once I see it that is.

Okay, I have rambled on enough. ^_^; Instead talking about Vampires, I should go work on my stories. If your in Washington, enjoy this day of sun, because I did a rain dance for the Gods and it looks like they were pleased and I can crawl out from this rock tomorrow to enjoy the comfortable chill of rain. Thank you Gods. Now if you guys could give me feedback on whats wrong with my Vampire Dance, that would be wonderful so I can please you and get my Vampire comedian.

Thanks,
Nekodra
Nekodra-blog@hotmail.com
@Nekodra

Still would love tips for indie publishing through Amazon from my previous post, Little Advice/Help